If only, if only

Go back in time to an event you think could have played out differently for you. Let alternate history have its moment: tell us what could, would or should have happened?

It’s very teenager of me but I would not change anything. I feel that even the most terrible things that have happened to me, things that make me cringe even now after years and years are very important to me today. It makes me who I am, has allowed me to move forward, have meaningful relationships. I have a story because of all the bad things I’ve done.

I think of all the people who have got it exactly right and I think.. really? There is no one that you have made unhappy? Not one? Is that what it takes to make you happy?

I can’t go into the details of all the things that I have done wrong. All I know is, when I tell people about what I feel has been my life’s greatest mistakes, they say… ok.. and then..

Since then, I”ve stopped wondering about If onlys…



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